As you know from the previous post, the first part of cycle 1 wasn’t what you could call a walk in the park. Once the Restoralax did its work, though, and I was able to get some sleep, things greatly improved. The past week has been much better.
It’s hard to think about it in the midst of particularly challenging moments, but we do pass through those moments and, in my experience at least, there are pauses – lovely oases – before the next challenge arises. Time is a marvellous thing!
Updates
I saw the radiation and chemo oncologists last week and got some helpful information from them. Firstly, the 12 chemo cycles that the nurse saw in the computer was an error. There are only 8 cycles for my protocol – yippee!!! So I’ll be finished chemo by early October. About 4 weeks after that I’ll have more scans and then about 2 weeks after that will be the scope. Once that’s done we’ll know how well (hopefully!) everything has worked and figure out the next steps from there.
The radiation oncologist is also making a referral for me to the Women’s Clinic at one of the hospitals to help with the effects of being shunted into menopause from the radiation.
On Friday, I saw the PICC line unit because of the discomfort and occasional pain in that area. They did an x-ray and confirmed that everything is fine with the catheter. It’s probably a muscle pull or something to that effect so I don’t need to be as ginger with it as I have been, which is great.
The wrist tendonitis has flared up again so I have my hand/wrist all wrapped up to reduce how much I use it. Typing this will be the most work my thumb will do today! I am learning to do more things with my left hand, which is not a bad skill to have. Here’s a challenge for you: Brush your teeth with your non-dominant hand. It’s so weird! π
Cycle 2 prep
Tomorrow cycle 2 starts. I think I’m more ready for it than the last one. One of the nurses I saw last week suggested that I start taking Restoralax today and continue for the first few days of the coming week to hopefully head off a repeat of the last time. Works for me! I also have lots of unsweetened applesauce on hand to help things along, too. π
I will very likely still have insomnia on at least Monday night, if not both Monday and Tuesday like the last time. The chemo oncologist said she could prescribe a sleeping pill, but if it’s just one or two nights I’d rather muddle through it, knowing it’s just temporary, than throw another pill into the mix for my liver and kidneys to have to deal with. They have enough stress and pressure on them. If it does happen, I have a few things lined up to do to help pass the night away. And, really, taking the expectation of sleep off the menu also removes the frustration of not getting to sleep, which is also helpful. It won’t be fun, but it’s hardly the worst thing a person can go through in this whole process.
I have my snacks, puzzle books, novels, drinks, etc. ready for my onsite chemo tomorrow morning. I shan’t be bored! The bottle for the at-home infusion wasn’t as much of a bother as I thought it might be so I don’t have any concerns about that. I’m also quite used to room-temperature drinks and food. It takes some planning – no spur of the moment grabbing juice or milk from the fridge. I have to pour it up a few hours before drinking it to get it warm enough not to get that broken-glass feeling in my throat. But I think I’ve got the handle on that. I keep my water jug on the counter now so there’s always at least something to drink.
I’m also getting much better at remembering to put on the gloves when reaching for things from the fridge or freezer. Those pin-prickly zaps to my finger tips aren’t painful right now, but they will likely become so as the effects accumulate and become stronger. More than that, though, I don’t want to be careless and end up with permanent or really long-term peripheral neuropathy. That thing can be life altering – if you can’t feel the bottoms of your feet, you can’t walk, for example. So I am being much more mindful of that and ignoring the little voice that says, “Oh…don’t be silly…you’ll only be touching it for a few seconds…” Nope! Active quashing of that voice, thank you very much!
I had no nausea last time, but that doesn’t mean there won’t be any this time, so I’ll be keeping an eye on that. In my grocery shop yesterday I made sure to get things that will be easy on the ol’ tum-tum should that occur. My friend Joanne in Saskatchewan sent me a lovely care package a week and a half ago with a bunch of snacks that a friend of hers found handy to stash around the house, close to wherever she would be so if she wasn’t doing well, she would have easy access to them. I also have ginger ale at the ready!
All in all, I think I’m as ready as I can be for the coming week. I definitely feel mentally much better than the lead up to the first cycle and the first week of that cycle. It also helps knowing there are 8 instead of 12 cycles. As of Wednesday this coming week, I’ll have finished 25% of the chemo already! Woohoo!
Wishing you well
Thanks for reading… I hope that things in your universe, wherever you are, are going well or at least as well as they can be at the moment.
If you aren’t currently going through a big life challenge, hopefully you are able to be a support to someone around you who is.
And if you are going through something big and heavy, I hope you are able to find your own internal support, which is so important, and that you have some great folks around you to help you through it. You are not alone.
Whatever the outcome, all will be well. (Henry B. Eyring)
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